Knock Knocking at my lonely door he came,
Struggled To open it, But alas was I saved in Vain,
Left me with a Chance this dreadful time,
But whisperd words that Things Might not be fine.

Thought about my meet day and Night,
Worries, tensions feeling me and i grinned,
Saw him Knock someone elses door,
Not as Lucky as me....the person had to go.

My knockin frnd did not part and tried ways,
Aware was I, for I heard them all say,
"It comes like a Thief in the night,
And sets Not you, But the rest in Fright"

Tried Hard, To not think of his unprepared call,
And Lived each day firm and tall,
Many encounters had i with him,
A friend and Foe now i seen.

Tired and weary, weak and sad felt I,
Waited for him to knock, with Joy I cried,
A true friend was He, heard My Plea,
And slept in peaceful slumber, a Everlasting dream

THE OTHER SIDE OF "ME"

I woke up this morning and realized I was unique and special in my own ways. Nope.I know that, but never paid any heed to to It. We do think alike...however not really alike. Some little things make a huge difference. People have known me for years, ages...seen me born, grow up as a child, enter my teens and now see me in Adolescence .But I assumed they know me well...But the truth is No they don't..Nor does any one know you well. Your something and someone that is different, unique and special with those hidden things that others fail to see or you fail to be them in the presence of a million, because thats the hidden side of Us...You, me and they..So many things go unseen and unheard.

Life is all bout moves and taking a move. Majority of times, life is about wearing a Mask. No offence,but as I walk down the lane, I so feel this is the truth.You don't want to be so, but your forced to be one.Outta the real person that we are, we tend to mask a lot of things from the world outside.Fake smiles, fake attitudes, fake courage, fake respect...and fake what not. So the entire fake mask takes over and then you have a fake ME...and this is when realization dawns and tells you this is NOT what you are..You are sum one totally different.A person who cares but is let down and pretends to not care, You smile but you hate to smile at that very someone.
Many a times we tend to hate ourselves not because for what we are but for what we try to be.The essence of Me is lost, Now its me trapped in something I am not....People want to value you for who you are and not what you are not.

Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death.

Wanna be Understood and want to be ME....No masking, no being Artificial..
Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody.

Judge me Not....please

U gotto accept me the way i AM man...U cal me names, u accuse me for things i dnt do and u fail to kno al of that u say..Words Kill..Mightier than a Sword.Its sad That U dont Understand me and worst when U dont wanna Know me.I gues i fail to kno u too...Wanna have conversations, fight, apologize and start the same.Am i to keep hearin al of those accusations whic u make on me??..Might b possible with others, Not with Me..Emotionally weak that I am....Aint I a human like u???cummom Imperfections make me Human...Correct them...U judge me..do u even kno me .?.u kno NO nothin about me and u assume.I guess we need to move on and grow with time and not keep going back to the past.The present is a Gift..Y cant you and me live it.May b u and me think different..U think What i certainly dont.And there arises the hot discussion.When u start to assume things i dont dream of Thinkin....N wow...U accept me to not react when U jus put the blame on me...Not dun..better u stay away..Cuz I aint U.....Might end up gettin verbal with you and give u things wht u may not deserve for having made me feel so miserable....
DOnt test my pateince....Dont u dare try killin me emotioanlly..Might end up in tears without u even knowin it...But wil surely hold a grudge against You....Pride u c..comes in my day..If i deserev to b hurt..i deserve a reason....I cant b hurt by you for No reason.May b the reason is petty for you, as i said ..i dont think the way you do...M a child..il b a child....
Accept me the way I am, N i wil do the same.Dont Judge me for al the littel U kno about Me....I am not the way u think me to Be...Correct my faults make me strong.Il be with You to kno your weakness, dont Feel hurt.I care, so i say.Wt v for each other.Frnds to let each other know that there is a reaosn to Survive and not hurt one.

FRIENDSHIP!!!!!!Hmm just had a really bad experince with a SOMEONE SO DEAR TO ME,A GOOD PAL who Wanted to end it all and just gave it to me in a way that Dat all dnt Seem right..Nope she dnt Misunderstand me or nything.She just felt a Little isolated for reasons m unawars of..She was a darling..N i stil love her.Was Unique in her own ways..I wonder what did i do to her that she quoted things like"I am asking you for forgivness and the other two also, I just want to end it all in NICE WAY"..wow..u think its a nice way of ending it up..Give me a Break Oh ya...N guess what...I had no tiffs with her and she makes this GOOD BLESSED decesion.She had isssues with My other frnds for sum personal reasons.But she thought of me as the same.They were not wrong in what they did, nor was she.But surely her move was....I so dint desereve that.I Miss her so m writing bout her...buhh m sure situations compeld her to do the same..Al day long, just thinkin....What was she doing with us for the last 3 years if she had to condemn us the way she did it yesterday.?God...I culdnt belive my ears..What was i hearin??was i hearin things that I SO did'nt expect to hear...ya may be thats why they seemed so bitter.Had the best time of my life with These three pals of mine whom I made friends with in St.Xaviers College during my Junior college..Life was soo beautiful and ya it does seem beauiful now when I think of them, thier presence in my life and soo..the Bestest things eva given to ME... But I am sure it wuldnt be the same ever again in relaity..for all that she said and all that she thinks bout us..about ME...She stil talks to me, oh ya hugged me few days back too.But wt hurts me Nothin same Like before...U, me, she n her..Nope...Not that people dont change..they certainy do...Everyting now seems to be soo FAKE to me about her..Its better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all..so apt, i think..... N now i wonder whic of them am i gonna last til the end with???yeah this question hits my mind every now n then ....
Well, To brief you with my Topic FRIENDSHIP, I would love to start with the story of three Nicest and bestest frineds ..It was Abigail, Sharon, Carol and Rachel.Abigail was the Kid of the group.A very lovable person, It was difficult to think she ever knew what Pride, Attitude or even Swears were.Just soo innocent.Sharon was girl who if you met for the First time would Judge her as being really very Rude and Crude and everything.The Worst on Exteriors the, Best at heart.Though there were times where one sufferd from Mood swings and rude behaviour, most of the moments were just so beautiful and happy..even the tiffs and Trials that the 4 of them together faced made taste Life and they did smile when they al thought of it later..hmm Carol was someone who carried pride and was very emotional by heart.. Getting angry for really silly reasons, was her biggest weakness.N Rachel was the most caring of al of the 4.Did not miss on doing nythin to end up petty fights and bring bac the same days...Wuld shed her tears to forgive and go long ways to to be a better person....N was sum1 who used her heart n not her mind most of the time..But this time it failed.And Rachel like usual did her very best to save this frndship, butt it dnt work.Ego clashes, personal biases, Judgemental attitudes...Ended the very existence of the 2 yr relationship..Not many tiffs did theyhave in their college yrs, But wen they did..they did try to understand each other and forget it.Sharon wuld not bend ways....Rachel wuld try to mend ways.And thus things went on...Accepting one buh not tellin her what she dnt like of her...Til the day when things blew outta proportion for the very reason that nobody actually let each other know their weaknees and just gave in to verbal praises....When finally a day came when the kid of the family culdnt take in any more cuz she felt she was putt down by the rest.Tht was not the case, that was what she thought.And thus came the Final end...N she decided to quit leavin the family in bits...cuz They missed her...N so did she..Buhh she nvr turned back to them, cuz she felt she had beedn hurt many a times and they failed to eva understand her way...sad.....but true..
It aint al that easy to mainatin relationships..it takes Patience and Understanding..Its better to not give in to many praises rather corrct someones faults and help them be a better person.The main reason WHY things didnt work......

AM I WRONG?? Just spoke to Ma.She asked me Y do I get angry on silly reasons and act so childish.She mentioned and brought to my notice that It was only Sis,herself n Me for each other.Dad no more.In his presence it was a sharing of me n dad or mum n dad or sis n mum n soo..Now its the 3 of us who need to share,care N not stand divided LIKE THE WAY i do.Dnt kno where I stand wrong,all i want is people to listen to Me, to what i wanna say..Buhh wen that doesnt happens I feel is hurt and when things go wrong because of them I loose it All.I kno at the end its again none outside,only us to rule,decide and act upon.I do feel the absence of My dad in my life and time has just made me realize that his thoughts and my do match..I keep wondering r M words gone unheard becuse I m the youngest, or because I thiink By my mind and not My heart.The heart rules,But in certain situations its my Mind that overpowers the Heart.My suggestions do seem to b a liitle rude and self centerd than theirs but its keepin in mind the ruthless world We living In..N its pricks me Wen they fail to listen to me and hurts me all the more when things have gone the way they shuldnt have..

A lil world!!

Hmmmm........
Its a smal world v living in.Every1 seems to be connected to one another in one way or the other.Actions,deeds,Thoughts,feelings,etc.At times its like wow,ur thoughts and mine match,and at times,Its like I hate to have you think the way u do.Its hurts wen peope dont understand You.Feels Usless to be a part of a world that doesnt even bother,care to kno u a lil better.But again...thts Life.Every1s differnt,uniuqe in their own ways, N I wuldnt undertsnad either.But At times Little things do make me feel conncetd to sum1 i meet, a new person.N I wonder......Its a Smal world V living in,aint it?

SMILE....n THE WORLD SmilEs..

Well...its me..Arlene here..to begin with i LlllOVE myself ...Not self obsession but Loving ur self more dearly....a Happy Go Lucky person...Can describe me as 'THE QUEEN OF MOOD SWINGS'....i love smiling n clickin pics..Thats jus the reason.....u can c my pics changin every single day...
wteva.......life rocks...cuz its wt U make of iT......